"So I'm here to testing out my blog, settings, notes and all - hoping that it would offer some sense of relief and express my views. Nothing has really surprise me and my actions as of lately. My mental fabric has appeared to deteriorate as I'm trying to regain whatever confidence I had picked up. Work as today was fine. I'm still waiting for this database inventory class to happen so that I can have access to the wonderful Stats can 'restricted' data so I can pull out the most wonderous and relevant data they have to offer. I will prevail! Until then, lots of nonesense reading and you know what...its feel great to be able to do that all day and not messed up in the mindless sameness that is the labour industry. Oh how I yearn for the guided learning that GRID had proved day to day but I guess its time to take it with my head high and start off on my own. In the meantime, it has become self-evident that my own well being might be at stake yet the world around me has been completely turned upside down and I'm looking for another safety net or routine to return to so that my days aren't full of calamity...some people take it out to be an easy process but things are quite what they seem and the wanna be psychologist in my life might be fondling me in the wrong directions...whateves, I know whats best for good old Joel or I should...When your moral fabric has been stripped, its hard to regain especially with no loved ones around so then its time to pack up and look for another avenue to explore and find yourself to nestle in...wherever that might be or you can stay and fight the good fight - not necessarily fighting but stick on changing your situation as you are and stop running though its hard to decipher if that's the right decision sometimes. Anyways I'll keep heading in the direction that life brings me and stay postive and stay away from the negative and keep living...anyway, thats what i needed to say for now and hopefully a more 'meaningful' article will spawn next."